Trudging the Road of Happy Destiny…Argh!

spiritualDo you ever wish you could unlearn what you know?

I remember as a teen thinking I knew it all and had all the answers. And of course I didn’t know shit! Now I would prefer to just crawl back in the womb…JK! Well, not really…

Now that I have had years of recovery, spiritual growth, personal development, therapy, and just life experiences, I want to have a partial lobotomy… Lol! Continue reading

The River in Egypt…

images (22)Who me? In Denial?

Apparently so….

In denial of my self-serving motives…of my perplexed life of addiction…and of my constant mental conflict of deciphering the two.

For me, they are one in the same. Did my addiction create my self-centeredness, because only by medicating do I feel like I am enough? Or did my “more, better, faster, now” mentality, spiral me into a life of addiction? Continue reading

Buzzed and Bill W.

quote-9bd0058682aa811158085cf3f01964fc_hWow!!    The trials and tribulations of alcoholism. Never thought I would blog about this.

I was thrown to my knees and hit my bottom at 18 years old in the grips of drug addition and alcoholism.

My career started at 9 yrs old with drinking beer with my step dad. He thought it was cute. Little did he know that it started a spiraling mess of mental and physical suffering for the next 26 yrs. Continue reading

The Attitude of Gratitude…

images (16)Most people don’t slow down long enough to really be grateful for what they have. I too am guilty of this.

There is so much pain, despair, hunger, disease and poverty in the world. And a lot of us sit around and bitch and complain that our clothes don’t match or the mortgage check bounced, or the dog chewed up your favorite pair of shoes. We whine about the meaningless shit in our lives.

Like I said, I am guilty of this too. Continue reading

That’s All I Got!

I haven’t posted in a few days. Simply because I didn’t think I had anything worth sharing.

That’s my ego getting in the way…again!

I’m in a dark place…which is okay because it doesn’t happen often.

Growing up and maturing sucks! My outlook on life has changed so much in the last year, it blows my mind. Continue reading