The River in Egypt…

images (22)Who me? In Denial?

Apparently so….

In denial of my self-serving motives…of my perplexed life of addiction…and of my constant mental conflict of deciphering the two.

For me, they are one in the same. Did my addiction create my self-centeredness, because only by medicating do I feel like I am enough? Or did my “more, better, faster, now” mentality, spiral me into a life of addiction? Continue reading

Buzzed and Bill W.

quote-9bd0058682aa811158085cf3f01964fc_hWow!!    The trials and tribulations of alcoholism. Never thought I would blog about this.

I was thrown to my knees and hit my bottom at 18 years old in the grips of drug addition and alcoholism.

My career started at 9 yrs old with drinking beer with my step dad. He thought it was cute. Little did he know that it started a spiraling mess of mental and physical suffering for the next 26 yrs. Continue reading

The Attitude of Gratitude…

images (16)Most people don’t slow down long enough to really be grateful for what they have. I too am guilty of this.

There is so much pain, despair, hunger, disease and poverty in the world. And a lot of us sit around and bitch and complain that our clothes don’t match or the mortgage check bounced, or the dog chewed up your favorite pair of shoes. We whine about the meaningless shit in our lives.

Like I said, I am guilty of this too. Continue reading

That’s All I Got!

I haven’t posted in a few days. Simply because I didn’t think I had anything worth sharing.

That’s my ego getting in the way…again!

I’m in a dark place…which is okay because it doesn’t happen often.

Growing up and maturing sucks! My outlook on life has changed so much in the last year, it blows my mind. Continue reading

“Of Integrity”…

in·teg·ri·ty - the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.

I have to say…this by far is something I practice on a daily basis.

I also have to say…I am far from perfect!

download (2)It amazes me how a lot of people will lie to you because they don’t want to hurt your feelings because they have changed their mind or don’t want to do something.

When in reality the only person they are hurting is themselves. They have now become untrustworthy.

Besides, how important do they really think they are that someone would actually lose sleep over cancelled plans or changing their mind.

For me, just be a straight shooter. I do not have thin skin. I may be disappointed at times, but I will get over it. Plus, I will respect and trust you for being honest.

And know that I will always be honest and up front with you. I am told brutally honest at times. But I know no other way. It is really simple. Have a backbone people…seriously!

download (3)I have had a few “so called” leaders in my life recently that I wouldn’t let lead me to the corner. They hide behind this facade. They talk the talk, but trip and fall with every step. No thank you…I got this!

Don’t get me wrong, my past is not pretty, but it’s mine and I own it! It has made me who I am today. And I am grateful for every lesson learned along the way. I have nothing to hide. What you see is what you get. And if you don’t like what you see…that’s ok!

I am confident in my faith and convictions. I trust in God’s plan. I love and cherish the people in my life, and try to live in integrity one day at a time.

Thank you for visiting!

Be true to yourself!

And….Don’t Quit Your Day Dream!

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